In the shadows I wait,
I hear the cracks and blows,
As his booming voice is tainted with hate.
I shudder with fear,
Hiding away,
Like a frightened deer.
I hear a crack,
Then my mother falls,
As she topples on her back.
I look at the figure on the floor,
Silent tears start to stream,
He quickly kicks her giving her more.
I run out of my shelter towards him,
I punch him hard, but it doesn't phase him,
And my face paints grim.
He slams me against the wall,
And my face stings,
As I start to fall.
I cut my eyes at his disgraceful face,
He sees the hate etched in my eyes,
He kicks me and starts to pace.
He yells, 'Your as useless as your mother is',
I cringe at his voice,
And I swing my leg, but miss.
Hate rises in my heart and mind,
And drapes it in shadows,
For him to find.
He walks out the door,
Never looking back,
I crawl to my mother and lay beside her on the floor.
That night I wished for the lord to take us away,
The pain and hate,
Or at least keep him at bay.
Now we all know God works in mysterious ways,
And I swear he granted my wish,
Because we haven't seen him in days.
Later we find out that he hid himself away,
Ended it with drugs,
With nothing left to say.
I looked at mama and then the heaven above,
I closed my eyes, began a prayer,
Saying my thankyous and sending my love.
Prayer I said to the Lord, one lonely night:
Dear Lord,
I've never needed you as much as I do now,
I've tried guiding mama,
But I don't know how.
All I ask is for a end to this hate,
By keeping him away,
Or inviting us through the big gate.
Mama suffers and has given up all hope,
My heart is shrouded in shadows,
We don't know how to cope.
