I lie to my heart and to everyone I know,
I promised I wouldn't cry for you and move on.
But I can't, I feel so empty inside,
I feel so alone,
Like my soul is missing,
I try not to cry,
Now I am stuck in my web of lies.
I find myself making the same mistakes.
And everyday my heart still aches.
I am trying to turn him into you,
I am wearing a mask that I can never take off.
So to be close to you I will be a friend,
But it hurts without you,
A cold pain in my body,
That stabs my heart a thousand times worst then when we broke up.
I don't even want to wake up in the morning,
Because my world is together but I AM APART.
I can't be true my heart.
I am not true to my soul,
I am in a billion parts,
I am not whole.
I would do anything to get rid of this pain,
I would sell my soul,
I would cut all my hair,
I give up my beautiful voice,
Live my life in vain,
Just to get rid of this pain,
I would give up my inner beauty and body,
I will give up all my talents,
I would travel all around the world,
I'd give up being a girl.
I give up all the songs and poetry I wrote,
I would sink on a boat,
I would do a million things more,
Just to get this pain to go away.
I have tried a lot to get rid of it,
I tried isolating myself,
I tried killing myself a thousand times,
I have cut my skin just to feel another pain,
I have tried to drink my pain away,
I have smoke cigars, cigarettes, and weed too.
I tried to change myself so many times,
I burned almost all I had of you,
Almost every picture and letter too.
But no matter how much I try you are still in my head,
Your touch and kisses still haunt my dreams.
A girl told me its because I am in love,
But I don't know what that word means!
So would I give anything stop hurting
To stop all the crying,
To stop all the lying,
To stop it all for once and all,
So if you hear me God answer my prayers:
"Please make me forget him,
Please let me not care,
Let me forget all the time we shared,
Let me forget his kisses and his touch,
Let me not miss him as much.
LET ME STOP LOVING HIM BECAUSE HE DOESN'T LOVE ME!!
PLEASE LET ME BE FINALLY FREE!!
Take all these tears in which I cry,
So I won't have to lie."
