I fall for you and loathe you in our dreams
for consuming me
and for fighting those senses long ago
you laugh
cruel and adoring at the same time
it was always like this
you tell me nothing has changed
but that you fear my complexity
while you tug at my heart
believing it is still yours
what gives you the right?
and I can't help but love you still
I f**king hate you for that
even in these purple walls on the 15th floor I am not safe
forgetting myself
peeling the dead skin off
your snake skin is constant
running through years and countries
pummeling other hearts to distract from my own
you would be proud
you could learn a thing or four
for you are not the almighty I once believed you were
but you are still my querido
in the softness I remember that
before slipping into your darkness
while that cloak of vows flaps wildly
will you remember?
I'm waking up now...
