The scars tell me the story of a life I used to know
A life that still drags me down
As I try to move ahead
I'm drowning
Constantly trying to catch my breath
My arms flailing
Until suddenly I give up
The fight was no longer worth it
The war is still going on in my head
And I don't know how to let it go
I don't quite think it will ever end,
At least until the last bullet is flying through the dark sky
The war might never end
Until one innocent party is dead and gone
And there is no more reason to fight
Only screams fill the air
And then silence
The dead, frightening silence of eternity
Is it over?
Is it safe to come out from the safety of our shells?
In this battle of good and evil, who really wins?
The cost of war drains all who is affected
And they will continue to suffer
No matter how innocent or guilty
How big or small a role they played in the whole battle
No one wins
Death is all that is left to save us from ourselves.
The scars remind me of how it was being in the center of war
When it finally escalated for all to see
Nobody knew my pain or my desires
To see it all fall away
Nobody wanted to notice the tears
Or the blood
Instead they all turn the other way
Decide it's not their business
When in reality
We are all to blame
Personal responsibility is not something that is easily confessed
We all point to what is outside of us to find the answers
Instead of getting to know our true selves
And what we would do for our own personal gain
Every war is the same
Whether it involves two people or
Two million
No one is left out of the war
And everyone is dragged in
Whether they wanted to be involved or not
All war is total war
The scars remind me of a time when I thought I was weak
When I thought nobody would hear my cries
Truth is,
I was drawing attention to myself
So that people would understand the war I was surrounded in
The war I was born into with no way out
And every way I turned I was being sucked in
You can not forfeit
Nor can you claim defeat
You cannot run no matter where you turn
It's just the way it is
Everyday is a brand new day
Filled with surprises and fear that it will end
We are safe in the fear
We are safe in what we know
And what we want to understand as the only truth
Our truth
The mind makes the world foggy
It does not allow you to see beyond the clouds
The outside world is to blame
While we hide in our holes
And pray to one up above to save us
Constantly begging to save us
But it never comes
And I find peace knowing
That it will never end
Constantly in flight or fight
I choose to do neither
I'd rather stay here
Where the truth rests in my mind
No one will ever believe me
At least I know the truth
So that one day
When the truth will finally set me free
I will be ready
I am locked and loaded
Waiting for the day when I can finally aim my bullets
At the enemy
And win
I will stand tall on the mountain tops
And no one can bring me down
No one can tell me what side to fight on
Who to protect and who to let die
No one can tell me what to believe
And who to fight for
Because in this war
I fight only for myself
The only reminders I have
Are the scars that used to bleed
The scars that cried out my pain
And tore apart the only innocence
I believed I used to possess
But the war dragged me in
And I was only a child
I will no longer choose who to fight for
Because in the end
I was fighting for my freedom
